Little joys

I sat in the back seat of the ancient Maruti Zen. There were no tinted glass and the a/c barely managed to keep pace with the crazy Delhi heat. But there in the front were my parents of 27 years bickering and fighting about paying toll tax on the Gurgaon highway.

It was amazing how well we knew each other. How well we all could not only interpret each other's actions but also predict them. You can run but you cannot hide.

It was just like old times. My parents and I and our small family. We have been through so much in these past years and bonds have strengthened or threads have broken, but at the end we are still treading the path each day as it comes and living each moment as it delivers.

Arent these the small joys in life?? As I sat there in the back seat now all grown up and pretty, I felt complete after a long time. What else did I want? Why did I ever want anything else? This is it! Here they are!

When life gives you lemons..

Nothing can beat the view of the unaesthetic red and yellow colored buildings with dark clouds in the sky and a smell of rain in the air... Well my PICT hostel room, might actually. But thats besides the point. No New York, No Chicago, No SFO, No Paris, No Amsterdam, or any other god damn city in the world stand a competition to how beautiful my country is. Its been ages that I have heard the birds chirping!! How well behaved are the fucking birds in US that they never make a freaking noise!! The clouds thundering and the birds chirping and its 6:01 in the morning. Yes, quite possible that 6:01 am might be quite beautiful there as well (since I have not seen it more than a couple of times), but Im very sure nothing can beat this..

I miss my days in India. Its amazing how your childhood becomes the most memorable part of your lives even though you remember only tids and bits of it. I guess thats why... only good memories make way. A child's mind does that :) Its simple and easy.

I miss the vada pavs a lot. I miss Sai's egg biryani which he and I always shared and the coffee!! It was 16 freaking bucks. I miss him. I always will. If its not the childhood memories that my mind is filled with, its his!! I try and never have regrets in my life and you know what I dont. I have lived some most lovely years of my life in the last 8 years. They couldnt be more fulfilling. There is no one more endearing that I have met in my life. Wish him all the love and luck in his life.

When life gives you lemons, throw them away. I dont like lemonade. Sorry!

To be or not to be

And I thought that they didnt give up on me. But in hindsight I realize they were just too much of a coward to stand up and speak. And it continued... it continued in vain. Only to repeat itself all over again.

On the contrary, I question myself - Is it wrong to have a voice? Or how much voice is good voice?

:)

To answer my friend A, sometimes even 7 years arent enough to know someone and sometimes you need just a few months or may be just weeks. Its the ability and the intention to know someone. There is no knowing someone without hard work. One needs to intentionally explore.

For courageous times and bigger voice.

Society

On another note... I could share this song..!

So much meaning, so much to convey, such strong emotions. I loved this movie and I reckon the ending.

Happiness is true and can exist when you can share it with someone else. If not, its an emotion that you cant even comprehend.

You need people around you and there is no pride in being able to live alone.

Contrarily, its depressing the pressure society can levy on individuals. Although its no stakeholder, it still owns you in a way that has never been mutually agreed upon and rather is an unsaid agreement like the one that the Italian mafia would get into. For me its a Catch 22 situation. I cant live with or without it. And so I search ... endlessly.. but the starling will need to settle and lay eggs. Coz isnt that the sole purpose of a living creature.

That was a horrible analogy!

Enjoy the song.

Oh it's a mystery to me.
We have a greed, with which we have agreed...
and you think you have to want more than you need...
until you have it all, you won't be free.

Society, you're a crazy breed.

When you want more than you have, you think you need...
and when you think more then you want, your thoughts begin to bleed.
I think I need to find a bigger place...
cause when you have more than you think, you need more space.

Society, you're a crazy breed.

There's those thinkin' more or less, less is more,
but if less is more, how you keepin' score?
It means for every point you make, your level drops.
Kinda like you're startin' from the top...
and you can't do that.

Society, have mercy on me.
I hope you're not angry, if I disagree.
Society, crazy indeed.
I hope you're not lonely...
without me.

My wedding and I :)

I found my wedding song.. :) :)

I have never felt so much at peace as I do when I listen to this song. Its such a couple song and now my mission is to find a man who can fit the song. Now isnt that easy! Haah, I am only kidding.

The song is so intimate yet so simple. The simplest and probably the most superficial lyrics ever but the music says so much. Love it.

And I am not sharing it with anyone until my wedding.. :)