It wasnt the person...but it was the acknowledgement!
ACKNOWLEDGEMENT... Thats all. Thats the answer.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Post Mortem
And I just realized something. And why.. now? Well, there is no directing the mind. It takes a stroll when it wants to.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Create
To hell with everyone else. From here on I live for myself.. like I always have!
Happy Badday to me.. !
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
..that link..
V says a link is missing... strangely enough.. so is mine.. !
Everything is in the best place that it could be for me as of now, but there is still something missing. And like most things I cannot put my finger on this one either. New job, new apartment (the most beautiful that I have ever lived in), new found freedom and the sudden responsibility of being all grown up, the pleasure of having Mom with me, and he seems at his best in the last one year... but then why is there something missing ..?
I guess I always have preferred to keep the old things/people/places. I try and hold onto them for as long as I can. This particularly happens with people too. I fail to see the good in the new. No wonder I held onto him for this long.
And on a totally unrelated note...this song has been playing in my head since last night.. !!
For that magic moment that I await.. and so does he.. !
Everything is in the best place that it could be for me as of now, but there is still something missing. And like most things I cannot put my finger on this one either. New job, new apartment (the most beautiful that I have ever lived in), new found freedom and the sudden responsibility of being all grown up, the pleasure of having Mom with me, and he seems at his best in the last one year... but then why is there something missing ..?
I guess I always have preferred to keep the old things/people/places. I try and hold onto them for as long as I can. This particularly happens with people too. I fail to see the good in the new. No wonder I held onto him for this long.
And on a totally unrelated note...this song has been playing in my head since last night.. !!
For that magic moment that I await.. and so does he.. !
Monday, July 4, 2011
I hate you (like I love you)
Another one of my best friends is getting married. People I was so close to, people I worked with, people I shared my innermost feelings with, people who are my friends and who love me, people whose lives were just like mine... they are all getting married. It feels weird.
She sounded just normal as if nothing extraordinary had happened. This was ought to happen, she says. They were in love. They wanted to get married. It wasnt thought or talked about. It just was the next step. They were in love. :)
She called me yesterday and said, "my wedding date is fixed. Its 17th Feb."
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She called again and they talked. ..... .... and the cycle continues. The never ending, vicious, heart breaking, tiring cycle still continues. Powered by determination, or lack of self esteem, or worse still, the need to regain her self esteem, she continues to disrupt my life. And he watches like a silent observer. He says he is a helper. God sent! Son of God to help the needy and the poor and the desperates!!! Respect!!
God helps those who help themselves.
And, One who cannot help himself cannot help anyone!
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Two such contrasting emotions in a single day, but all so true.
C'est la vie !!!
She sounded just normal as if nothing extraordinary had happened. This was ought to happen, she says. They were in love. They wanted to get married. It wasnt thought or talked about. It just was the next step. They were in love. :)
She called me yesterday and said, "my wedding date is fixed. Its 17th Feb."
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She called again and they talked. ..... .... and the cycle continues. The never ending, vicious, heart breaking, tiring cycle still continues. Powered by determination, or lack of self esteem, or worse still, the need to regain her self esteem, she continues to disrupt my life. And he watches like a silent observer. He says he is a helper. God sent! Son of God to help the needy and the poor and the desperates!!! Respect!!
God helps those who help themselves.
And, One who cannot help himself cannot help anyone!
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Two such contrasting emotions in a single day, but all so true.
C'est la vie !!!