re:introduction

Hi.

My name is G. 

And Im loving it. :)

its the walks and the talks..
the wines and the dines..
the rain and of course the pain..
but its good. its all good.
green finally looks like green and the wisdom is chasing after me.
who would have thought that a summer followed by a fall could lead to spring..
the lights and the flights..
the routes and the doubts..
the dogs and their barks..
and the sun... oh the sun.. with its gleaming ray..
Im happy to meet you once again.
a home so beautiful..so own..
a sense of pride and accomplishment it hones.
true beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
its time..its time for it to beheld.

Too much or too little

It's amazing when your friends start speaking for you. Its amazing when you discover that they might just know you better than you know yourself. It's a scary feeling. But this is a bell curve with their confidence on the x-axis and the correctness of the truth on the y. As their confidence increases in their ability to predict your reactions, at some point in the bell curve which is after the peak they start stating things that are so not true. But their confidence is at an all time high and they vouch to know you better than you know yourself when you argue with them about the truth.

I had a friend who hated it when her friends said, "oh I know you! I know why you said that or did that." it could be that she was just hiding the truth and didnt want to accept it or it could also be that her friends had crosse the peak of the bell curve. The scary thing about this situation is tht neither you not your friends know when the peak is crossed. It gets out with time and the more time it takes to get out in the open the more risky your reputation gets with all those comments your friends have already made.

Humph!! I wish there was an easy way out.

It's heart wrenching to see your friend argue and fight with you to keep the sanctity of his statements especially when he is at the lower right corner of the bell curve. His confidence is still high and all that time that lapse between the peak and the lower corer has not been enough for him to see that he is losing ground. By then you have known of course coz ud be hating urself already if not. He struggles to be your friend by telling all these awful things about you that aren't you. Btw: they are awful not coz he is being mean but they come out to be awful coz it's not you.

On a side note, it's so good to not hate. It's such a great feeling to forgive and let go.

Im smitten! Its been so long that I have felt this way. :)

But the world doesnt seem a better place. This feeling is scary as hell at this point in time.. in this circumstance. 

Cool quotient

I realized I dont have an opinion anymore.. Is that really sad?
psst.. Am I going to be a boring 30 year old in the near future? I wanted to be cool. Is it un-cool to not have opinions?

A child's play

I thought I didnt like kids.. But I have been babysitting for 10 years now!!

A read

Now I am not too much of a reader and thus the task of choosing a book to read become mighty difficult. The choice process has to hit the absolutely perfect book and this cannot miss the target, else the book will be dusted more often than read. Through the process of elimination, I have realized that I dont like fictions. I dont know how absolutely true that is but if the book is absolutely situational and has no true setting or substance to it I lose interest. I give myself the "i have better things to do in my life than read someone else's idea of someone else's life who didnt exist". Very cynical, I must say, but still true. And I am no one to talk books. Its like the little 4 year olds who I detest because they come to me with that humor that says "you didnt even know that!!". Yeaa... Hell ya.. YOU little boy, 3 inches off the ground... you dont know how it really works... ! Well, thats my guards up to little kids who try to outsmart me. And I am just like that when it comes to books.

But I truly want to be very careful. I dont want to chose a book too optimistic that makes me feel bad about where I stand today, and I dont want the book to be too pessimistic that makes me feel that there is no hope. Travel and history being my fav topics, they both can be so super awesome or absolutely a drag. I think I will delve into Marketing for a change. Marketing for dummies!! I like kindle coz then I dont have to hold the book in my hand as that and look dumb. I can still sit in Starbucks with my fav cup of coffee and read. That reminds me, Starbucks has totally done away with the whole "cup of coffee" feel. Where are the cups!!

Culprit

Have you ever wished that u meet with an accident and break your leg in the hope that atleast someone with sympathize with you then may be!