Coffee and some more..

Its a beautiful day today. Nope its not in the 60s.. its actually 75. But thats perfect for me who doesnt like cold one bit. And for some god damn reason this Starbucks is playing some of the most beautiful songs. I am going to pay up more to get my Shazam updated. I need it!!!

So I was chatting with a friend online (yup.. now thats not what I normally do at my time out in a coffee shop but I had to talk to this one).. and this is how the conversation went.

Friend: kya kar rahi hai

Me: starbucks mein hun... coffee.. music.. blog.. people.. dreams... and a little uneasiness from using a tampon

It was just funny. It was a quick thoughtless reply but a funny one. Not one of my general replies. So yes, I dont know how people do it but there is this constant feeling of something inside and how much ever one might think of it to be a good thing, it isnt...!

ok. Yoga time now. Yes I have to write about that. Its been a good experience.

Current Status - Coffee and much more..

Signs

So, P has it all figured out. She is my age and married for about a year to a guy who had been a friend of hers for the last 10 years. Its intense, the conversations we have. I cannot be her bff (I hate using this term). There are characteristics of hers that I dont appreciate a lot. But then there is this tangent that joins us together.. kinda like the tangent that passes through between the two circles. Our lives, our beliefs, our thoughts, and our opinions are so alike. She seems to be like my mirror image in a few of those aspects. But certainly like I mentioned before she definitely is more sorted out or rather appears to be. She says marriage did that to her. I dont believe her.

Things converge. Six degrees of separation for people? I say, for everything; for every emotion, for every situation, for every moment in time (how the hell will that work now?). Coming back to the point, everything seems to be getting pulled towards this central source of attraction and its not just gravity pulling towards the center of the earth. Its something else. Everything is so interrelated and connected. And I forget but we must value that. That is exactly how it was meant to be. This is how it was designed. I should not put my foot in my mouth and try and segregate these needs and these things/situations/moments etc. The overtly organized person that I am with an almost obsessive compulsive disorder existing, I should still let it pave it own way and with its own time.

I believe that everything in this world happens for a reason. Its important to not dig deep into this pit looking for reasons and answers but rather allow it its due course of time and let it explain itself to you as to why it happened. Oh! such wisdom!

Current Status - Better luck next time

Real love does exist..

A Sailboat

Not all those who wander are lost...

..A reminder to self..

On the other side..

"Every good friend once was a stranger" - A shady Chinese restaurant's Fortune Cookie

Welcome strangers :)

On the road again..

Metamorphosis.. or the Camouflage

Dedicated to the third most truly loved man in my life.

So you know yourself a little better today.. or do you?
I have always been a little mystery to myself. There is always some part of me that I am never aware of. Should that scare me? Moreover, as I come close to figuring myself out, I change. And then there is more figuring one out and the cycle continues.

I have heard many complain that they are today what they never thought they would be. On the other hand, some people fondly accept the changes that life has brought to them. Oh! I would never get married.. I just cannot. Kids.. ! I can never have kids.. even if I do, Id give them away to my parents to take care of them. They are such a nuisance. I would never let a guy become more important to me than my own life. My guy would be lucky.. he'd have the best sex of his life. I'll be a beautiful bride. Id never forgive a guy if he cheats on me... oh.. and one even better than the last one.... Id give my guy another chance. ...

So many I know have come up with bold statements like these and have dearly believed in them and not just that made a couple of bucks off of them advising others. But currently, they are so manipulated by their own lives and they dont even realize it.

And so.. just like that.. I have stopped saying Never. And I used to wonder what exactly does experience teach you and how much can you rely on it. Well.. in one scenario.. A lot.. Yes. I have stopped saying Never. But isnt there a 'never' in 'never say never'. Such an irony. And in the other scenario..No, beware coz it can fool you. Life changes so fast.. faster than the speed of light. Can you believe it. And you dont even come to know.

But then I wonder... this change that I talk about.. Is it a phenomenon, some kind of destiny, god's will if one must say so.. metamorphosis? Or is it really another manipulation of the wicked human mind? Just to cover up the muddy past or to protect the misguided future? Some kind of camouflage?

I have changed. A lot. I dont know whether its a result of some form of metamorphosis which every living creature has to go through in one way or the other. Or is it really my own mind playing games with me trying to set me into the current scenario that I have so undauntedly become a part of. But whatever it is, it is very unfamiliar but interesting. Havent I always liked to discover new things? But I'd like to stop playing games now and know the trick.. the magic wand that will make it all right!

Cant wait...

Current Status - Waiting...

Finding - Life manipulates..