Referral

I feel loss of words today as I write this post. My mind is a 'mela' of all sorts of thoughts right now but I cannot bring myself to comprehend what each one of them is indicating and getting at and how can I organize them all. For an overtly organized person, this gives nightmares. These are the times that I dread.

I have been observing people a bit too much lately. Its amazing that how beyond the cultural barrier, everyone has the same way of thinking and delivering. And I was quite amused by it too. But come what may, I have come to realize that culture plays such a big role in a person's upbringing. Underneath everyone is still the same, but the layers that cover them coz of the culture and their upbringing brings about a massive change in people and its not easy to penetrate through.

Americans amuse me with the variety of people they exhibit. But then again, I guess so are Indians (and I say that coz I find it very difficult to explain to Americans how Indians are not just one kind and how not everyone in India touches everyone's feet). A friend of mine, J, constantly believes that every other girl who take an initiative to talk to him even once likes him. He calls this giving himself the 'benefit of doubt'. But how right is that? He looks deep into this girl's eyes, has the gut-smile* on this face, and kisses her forehead and then her cheek. And he clearly has a boner as he shows his affection for this girl. In conversations later, when this comes up he lives in denial and assumes the girl to take the responsibility for not pushing him away! Which girl pushes a guy away who shows such affection on her. .. errrrm he says American girls.. Haah..!! This blew me away. Is it really culture. Just coz that girl was Argentinian and she is more sensitive to other people's needs, she has to take responsibility for his boner.. ! Well I am sure, she is partly responsible. ;). I think all this is pretty immature for a 30 year old man.

And then there is another American friend that I have. He has one of the most atypical history an American guy can have. The way its depicted in movies. (I like I like). But he claims he is far away from there now and has grown out of the nuances of his life (he is well experienced that way..). But he likes it simple!!! Never talks openly about his past. Mystery hovers around him all the time.. and then he asks for things being simple and easy! Hypocrites - most Americans. I know every guy likes the chase better than the commitment. But even if there is no commitment, its difficult to have these American guys tied down the way our poor Indians guys mostly are.

But then there are exceptions. Or should I say the 'other kind'. Going strong for a number of years. Have'nt seen a couple so much in love before. When I look at them, it gives me jitters. I have never liked or loved anyone so much. Am I missing something?

And then there is another friend that I have, W. An overtly ethical kinds. The ones who would look down upon you if you did an individual project in a group! And might even consider complaining. Did I ever mention that Americans have this nasty habit of complaining. They are complaining all the time. Mostly about people around them. Its surprising how guys gossip here and that just increases my respect for my friends back home.

I guess I need to stop observing less and concentrate more on my Managerial Accounting exam that I have day after.

Current status - Disinterested/Confused

*gut-smile - A term that I coined which only I understand -- its the kind of smile that is most genuine, most intense and believable and it mostly is smiled when the guy is expressing his deep passion for his woman.